September 29, 2005
She seemed so brave, deciding to tie the knot, close the doors once and for all. That was really smart. She was concerned about her dress, her make up and whether she looks pretty. When I called her before the party she said pray I look pretty please! She’s a beauty, what difference can one day make anyway…
She thought I’m not gonna be there and I wonder why she thought so. I guess I never was able to express how much people mean to me, very little people understand how my heart functions. I might be always short on words but she should have known I wouldn’t miss her engagement party for the world. She’s offically a Mrs now.
I wanted to cry while in car but I didn’t. I thought that if I cried and my brother asked me why am I crying I wouldn’t know the answer…I can’t say its because my friend is getting married! thats stupid, she’s getting married and I cry???
I still need to cry but I can’t find the place nor the time to feel that its safe to cry.
